TVD-obsession

Let's talk about my recent, well not so recent, obsession with The Vampire Diaries. Ever since the end of school, I have been using my love of Netflix to discover fantastic television shows I would otherwise  have not had the chance to catch up on. Aside from Gossip Girl and One Tree Hill, I have quickly become obsessed with Vampire Diaries and the characters, Damon & Elena. Hence. When I found out Ian Somerhalder and Nina Dobrev were together in real life, let's just say the fan girl in me went absolutely crazy.

How cute are they?!

obsessed with her

how could you resist that face?!

<3

K.Heigl=love

Okay, so as you will quickly begin to notice, I am obsessed with Katherine Heigl.

( Cover of One For the Money www.google.com)

 I own all of her movies & tv shows, religiously stalk her twitter and any other updates I can find on her, including those from trash mags, and obviously her official website. If I could pick any celeb to be my best friend, it would be her, without a doubt.


She's just gorgeous. In all ways: beauty, grace, heart, compassion. If there was a single actress I would pick to be the face of America, it would be her. I mean, really, would you look at this family?!

(photo from: www.kheigl.com ) 

I'm sure I'll end up posting more about her at some point, but for now I'll end with just saying again how completely and utterly wonderful she is. 

Maybe Mondays

As I was thinking about what I wanted my next blog post to be, I realized that Monday's are not only the beginning of the week, but a chance to set goals and work towards them. I then decided that every week, I would start off a Monday with a list of things to work towards or things to maybe forget about (;

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Maybe Monday

1) This week will be the week I get school stuff figured out. I'm sick of stressing about it and wondering if everything will work itself out. I just want to go back to the time when I was happy to learn and happy to be in class. I'm over having a mini meltdown any time I think about transferring to another school right away.

2) I'll be able to get some sleep this week. Ever since I left for school and then returned, I've developed some sort of weird insomnia esq. sleeping issue. Hopefully that will all be settled with a redesign of my room.

3) My parents will realize I'm not twelve anymore. As an almost twenty college kid looking to figure out life, I want nothing more than the same respect they afford others my same age. I can't stand the fact that I have to fight with them over the same things every.single.day to get my point across. Is it really to much to ask to be treated as an adult, at least for the most part?

4) I'll actually go through and clean my room/closet out. I want new clothes in the worst way possible, but I really need to figure out what I no longer like before I buy new to replace. Which is harder than it would seem when you can't ever make up your mind. 

This last one isn't a maybe, it's a fact, but....

4.5) You're literally the most amazing person I've ever met in the world. I want nothing more than to be with you forever. Which is an incredibly scary feeling. But it's also amazing. 

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The Present Past

Caution: this is an assortment of angry rambles that might not makes sense.

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Ever had those days where the things you dislike most in the world tend to all show up at once? Yeah, that was Sunday. And when I say I was part of the "Bad Mood Club" I mean I wanted to annihilate the world. It was that bad.

I've been known for my not so wonderful moods. The ones where simply saying Hello can put me over the edge. It's not ever really the people presently in front of me who are causing this bad mood, though. More times than not, my less that peachy mood is due to the not so far off past coming back to hit me upside the head.


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Yeah, you all know what I'm talking about.

It started from a text and developed into a rant against the world. I don't know about you guys, but I do NOT like to be reminded of the times I was wrong, or did something stupid, or just anything. Fact of the matter is: I don't like to be wrong and I don't like to be reminded that I was.

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So fast-forward about six hours to me leaving work and driving home near tears all because of stupid fights that had no relevance to anything. Except of course, that I didn't want to be reminded of it. Just because a fifteen year old version of myself made a bad decision doesn't mean that the nearly twenty year old me will do the same in the situation. People grow and change and develop into more than who they used to be. I know, what a crazy concept, growth.

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The past is a tricky thing. A reminder of where we've been and often times of who we used to be. It's not always a bad thing, sometimes this reminder serves a purpose of grounding us back to reality. It's a hard thing to come to terms with, accepting the past and moving forward from it. It's something I've struggled with and until recently never thought I could do. But here I am. Moving forward and watching my life unfold. I'm fully aware that sometimes, shit just happens. However,  there's a very large portion of the time where I'm convinced there is an alarm clock that goes off to alert whomever when things are going well or as planned.

As Shakespeare so eloquently wrote:


 "Oh, you’re happy now, but I’ll ruin your happiness, for all my supposed honesty."
Othello:Act2Scene1

Error On The Side Of Change

   I've written, erased, and re-written an opening post about six times now and honestly I'm still not sure if I like this, but we'll go with it. I'm an almost twenty somebody living out in the middle of somewhere trying to understand how the world works. I've got some amazing friends and an even more fantastic boyfriend. I'd like to think I'm a very lucky individual in that respect. I'm obsessed with a lot of stuff: tattoos, animals, history, and books to name a few. Blogging is not a new path for me, I've tried keeping up with it before and lost motivation almost as soon as I started. However, I fully intend on making this a lasting effort. I've kept journals, written bits and pieces of a short stories collection (I'm sure you'll get to read a few), and interned as a news journalist. Yet, with each new venture into writing, I've never just simply wrote about my life, the people in it, or the things that happen. 

     So here's where I'm at...

     Right now I'm starting a new journey, one that people normally begin before starting college. I'm on a path to find out where my passion is and how to apply that to a future career. I've recently made the tough decision to leave my college and start over at a different one. I learned the hard way that where I chose to go to school simply wasn't the right place for me to be. It's a tough thing to come to terms with, but, as with all change, it is/will be a good thing. As of right now, I'm not quite sure where I'll end up or what I'll be doing with my life in a semester, but I'm looking forward to discovering what I'm truly interested in. Choosing a school the first time around is a tough decision but having to make the choice a second time is nearly impossible. Not only am I choosing to leave a school, but I am also choosing to leave the friendships I made there. I know that in the end those that are true will remain, but I'm also worried I'll lose my best friend because I won't be there. 


     However...




     Challenge is the heart of the resistance to change. 


     That's my motto for all of this. Challenge. Growth.Change.Experience. I know that in the end, I'm exactly where I'm supposed to be.